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La-la-la, don't you love my crossposting? I really like the somber tone of this...

Title: Listen to the Finger Against Your Lips
Rating: PG-13
Pairing/s: Sirius/Lily, Sirius/James
Summary: Lily only wants to be comforted.
Word Count: 576
Notes: Written for [livejournal.com profile] javajunkie13, with the prompt 'Rain Boots' and 'Red'.

Lily stands in the rain outside Sirius’ flat, her red rain boots clashing horribly with her hair as they lock eyes through the window, Sirius with his shirt off and a cup of hot chocolate in his hands, and he even gets closer to the glass to see if it’s really her.

He puts on the first coat he finds laying around on the pile of semi-clean clothes by the entrance, storms out and forgets to lock the door in his haste. He’s drenched in seconds, trying to blink water out of his eyes. He nearly gets run over with a blue Ford as he crosses the street, and when he finally reaches Lily and holds her arms with a grip that must be painful she doesn’t say anything, doesn’t do anything but to look into his eyes with that serious expression of hers and with her hair wet and plastered to her forehead.

“God, Lily, what are you doing in here?” he asks, mutters, really, but she still won’t speak. She’s shivering now, her teeth chattering as she finally moves her arms (that had been resting at her sides, just hanging here like the arms of a broken doll), she turns her hands into fists and presses them against her chin and her mouth (And the gesture is so odd, so rare, that Sirius thinks that he’ll never truly understand her).

“Come on, let’s get you inside.”

They go up the stairs in silence. Sirius turns his back on Lily for a moment as he takes off his damp coat, hangs it in the back of the door handle. When he faces her, she’s just as immobile as before, her lips still tinted with the barest of blues as water slides down her face, her clothes. There’s a puddle at her feet, and her rain boots are filled to the brim with water as well, a pool for her white, pruned feet. Sirius lets her stay where she is, locks the memory in his head for later.

“My parents are dead,” she says, and she sounds and looks like such a child. It’s the first words he’s heard her say since she last saw her at their final day at Hogwarts, after she had broken up with James.

Sirius doesn’t know what to do, so he crosses the room and kisses her, slowly, and then there’s nothing childish in the way her icy hand gets under his trousers, in the way she rubs herself against him. He fucks her on the couch, as she cries, because she needs it and he wants her and because she’s had James and it’s the only way Sirius could ever have him.

(He wants to taste James in Lily’s skin, but he can only taste rain-water and wet cotton).

“I know you want James,” Lily says afterwards, when she’s clothed again in her soaked clothes and he wants to see more of her pale flesh.

“I know you love James,” Sirius says two minutes later, still naked and sitting at the couch. Lily nods. She puts her rain boots on again, the rubber making squealing noises in the silence between them, and she goes out without a word.

Two weeks later she’s dating James again, and when Sirius sees her smile for the first time since her parent’s funeral, her index finger getting sucked by James, Sirius still doesn’t know which one of them he wants the most.
There are 28 comments on this entry. (Reply.)
 
posted by [identity profile] shaggydogstail.livejournal.com at 11:58pm on 15/06/2006
Oh, this is wonderful. Delightfully twisted and angsty. *loves*

Poor Sirius, though. *pets him*

Sirius still doesn’t know which one of them he wants the most.

Well I can think of one very obvious solution to that dilemma. Just saying.
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 04:45am on 16/06/2006
Oh, thank you so much! Twisted is just so much fun 0_O
 
posted by [identity profile] quidditchkiss.livejournal.com at 12:14am on 16/06/2006
Devastating sexy in the best way possible.

There’s a puddle at her feet, and her rain boots are filled to the brim with water as well, a pool for her white, pruned feet. Sirius lets her stay where she is, locks the memory in his head for later.

I really like that part. There's something... innocent about it.
 
posted by [identity profile] quidditchkiss.livejournal.com at 12:17am on 16/06/2006
Devastatingly. Oops. lol
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 04:48am on 16/06/2006
Oooh, sexy is just such a wonderful compliment. And yay, you got the innocence I wanted to show! :) Thanks a lot. :))
 
posted by [identity profile] terraneanblues.livejournal.com at 12:31am on 16/06/2006
...GRAH.

Grah, for you are making my betray my OTP.

*sighs happily, all the same*
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 09:43pm on 16/06/2006
I betrayed it too, don't worry about it XD

Heee, glad you liked it hon. :)
 
posted by [identity profile] sazzlette.livejournal.com at 01:16am on 16/06/2006
GAH. Damn you for making me think I could like this pairing :p

Lovely lovely. Really like the red boots, and Sirius with his hot chocolate :D *glomps*
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 09:45pm on 16/06/2006
*glomps back* Thanks dear! Huh, and I had never thought these two could have chemistry... I guess I was wrong :P

ps. The red boots are my favoritest thing in this as well. I want a pair. Even if it hardly rains in here.
 
posted by [identity profile] sazzlette.livejournal.com at 09:46pm on 16/06/2006
Aha you ought to move here. It rains SO MUCH. Whee 8D
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 09:52pm on 16/06/2006
Ooooh, I WANT TO. Rain is like, the love of my life XD
 
posted by [identity profile] sazzlette.livejournal.com at 10:05pm on 16/06/2006
Ehee me too :D

--


Hand in hand they stumble carelessly along the muddy lane, tripping through puddles and stamping their feet gleefully onto the tarmac. The air is thick with the heady oppressive feel of the storm drawing in, and as they walk the sky bursts again, drenching them in seconds. Sirius drags Harry under the awning of tumbledown cottage, shaking water out of his hair and laughing. Harry pulls at the fabric of his t-shirt, pulling it away from his skin where it clings possessively, damp and slick against him.

Sirius slides his fingers, hot and eager against Harry's neck, curling around his cheek as he bends to kiss him, licking rainwater from the corner of Harry's mouth and the curve of his eyebrow. Thunder smashes across the sky, surrounding them in the sound of it. Harry gasps and opens his mouth to Sirius', shivering against him as Sirius presses him back against the damp stone.

--

*shrugs*
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 10:34pm on 16/06/2006
OMG that was gorgeous!! I could almost feel the water on me, and it's all so natural and lovely and waaaaaaah, I might die from love for you, for real.

*clings*

Thank youuuuuuu ♥ ♥ ♥
 
posted by [identity profile] sazzlette.livejournal.com at 10:36pm on 16/06/2006
Nahhh it wasn't that great :3 *dumps bucket of water over you* ;D

*squishes* You're welcome love :D ♥

(It's only to avoid doing my [livejournal.com profile] sunandsmut fic :/)
ext_38381: (stormy weather)
posted by [identity profile] melandry.livejournal.com at 02:39am on 16/06/2006
Ooh. Angsty and fucked-up and delicious.
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 09:46pm on 16/06/2006
delicious.

Oooh your compliments make me tingle in all the right places. :)) Thanks!
 
posted by [identity profile] forgotnsuitcase.livejournal.com at 02:41am on 16/06/2006
because she needs it and he wants her and because she’s had James and it’s the only way Sirius could ever have him.

I like this for the first images of Sirius and Lily, and because of the hints of a triangle and confused Sirius. Red boots and hot chocolate and rain, and the ending. Very wonderful.
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 09:47pm on 16/06/2006
Oh, thanks so much! Hinting the triangle was the most fun. :))
 
posted by [identity profile] dixie-pinky.livejournal.com at 03:00am on 16/06/2006
Nunca me habia detenido a pensar en esta pareja pero podria funcionar.
Me gusta la imagen de lily bajo la lluvia, y me recuerda lo mucho qe qiero qe llueva. La ultima frase es muy bonita.

saludos
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 09:48pm on 16/06/2006
Hehe, yo tampoco, si debo ser honesta, pero eso fue lo que me pidieron XD Muchísimas gracias!

Y aaagh, you también añoro la lluvia como no tienes idea ;-;
 
posted by [identity profile] spikeyboots.livejournal.com at 04:13am on 16/06/2006
Yay for some fab twisted Lily/Sirius love.

You have written this dynamic perfectly - for both of them it is always about James and I just love how fucked up that is. Brilliant stuff.
x
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 09:49pm on 16/06/2006
EXACTLY!! That's just what I wanted to convey, the way James is just the most important thing for both of them :) Thanks a lot!
 
posted by [identity profile] aquila-star.livejournal.com at 07:42am on 16/06/2006
Wow that was good. It swept me up real fast...and the last line is perfect.
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 09:49pm on 16/06/2006
Oh, thank you! I'm so glad you liked it. :)
 
posted by [identity profile] moonix.livejournal.com at 06:40pm on 16/06/2006
*licks*

Nyah, such a truly rainy fic, and you know how much I love Lily, and the Sirius wanting James is kind of sexy, and I really don't mind it, which is rare, so consider yourself a genius :D

 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 09:53pm on 16/06/2006
*purrs*

Yeah, I normally don't like either of the pairings, and yet it was so muchy fun to do! (let's see how your own prompt goes!)
Thanks so much, dear. :))

*is a genious*

*has no shame*
 
posted by [identity profile] javajunkie13.livejournal.com at 03:10pm on 02/07/2006
*flails* Oh, this was so perfect in its sexy, twisted way. Nngah, you've made me all incoherent with love for this and all the pretty images it's put in my head, especially: Sirius with his shirt off and a cup of hot chocolate in his hands, and he even gets closer to the glass to see if it’s really her.

Fabulous. ♥
 
posted by [identity profile] nekare.livejournal.com at 07:59pm on 03/07/2006
Weee, I'm so glad you liked it, dear! So twisted, yes, but oh so much fun to write. :) Hehe, this is pure imaged, really - but the opening one is still my favorite. *g*

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